Title: Why?

Ouh dear... It seems that my heart can only belong to One and One only...apparently, that One does not know this and I can't bear to tell him. Pathetic seyy aku... Everytime I see him, my heart melts... I would miss him everyday. Whether or not I see him. And when at times I think that he does not care for me, someone would say that he's been trying to find me for the whole day or something like that. T.T When I see his face, it does not look like it...wouldn't look like it...

I feel constantly hurt...I cry at night...I make people worry...I'm sorry... I know I look pale and sick... I wonder why humans have the will to feel emotions but end up getting hurt...I sometimes wish that I'll go numb...no emotions... I jz want to be happy, to be secure, to be loved.. Doesn't everyone? Even goths have/wants someone to be with them. To share their sorrows...Even animals too. Don't you agree?

Anyways, today we had Eng Presentation. DAMN, I KNOW I COULD'VE DONE BETTER...I just dun hav the guts...people around me would've thought it's lame...*CHIKO*...why am I so easily influenced lately??? Shit lar...I dun care...I JZ WANNA BE ME...WHY IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND??? WHY IS IT SO HARD TO ACCEPT??? WHY DO ALL OF YOU CRITICISE ME WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME INSIDE OUT??? WHY?!

why?...
why?...
why?...

Inside, I was never strong...never strong enough to help you guys...never strong enough to help myself...no one would understand... He wouldn't understand... I dun think he would even dare to try...

why?
why?

why?...

-azri
5:08 AM

Title: Confusion

Why is it everytime I see you, I feel like crying?
And why is it everytime you're near me, my spine starts tingling?
Just the thought of you could make me go mad,
My insanity lost, my heart beat so bad.
I want you to hear my desperate plea,
But I know it's to late for you to hear me.
This feeling inside is insuperable,
My cries at night are unbearable.
I wish I could turn back time to where it began,
And show my love all over again.
To show how much I care in exchange,
For all the times I've been so careless when fame.
I damn them hoi polloi,
They set us apart.
I want to feel halcyon,
I want to feel halcyon.

-azri
5:50 AM

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-azri
7:59 AM

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-azri
6:33 AM

I seriously can't wait for Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix sia!!! kyaaaa~*** XD I think this time I'm gonna watch it 3 times or so XDDD KIASU...But this time, he's uber hot!!! So is Rupert! XD Thinking about this is makin me feel high XD Keep on smiling XD...I seriously wana watxh it with the peope i love whom are 1)FAMILY 2)FRIENDS 3)OTHERS(my cuz's frens along wif mine) XDDD... can't wait...<3

-azri
10:18 PM

Before proceeding, rant contains min vulgarities, some are cencored...Just guess wad they are aiite? And don't tell wad they are to the little ones =) Good lookin'!

[SIGH]...Wattado??? Wattado??? I noe that I can pull this through...

Yes, I suspect that once Term 3 starts, a WHOLE lotta ppl will come to me and ask me them bloody qns., which I'll hav to repeat again and again...

Yes, I will hav to face schoolwork, stress and of course him...

Yes, I could go suicidal, but I believe that I'm a strong and independant teenager that can go through anything with her head held high...

I believe I could do what I set my mind to...

As what Nike's motto states : Nothing is impossible =)



At first, I never thought that he could effect me this bad. I lied that I didn't feel anything. But as days goes by, it left a deep scar in my heart (how mushy can this get right?) but it is wad I feel...guess it's gonna take a longer time to heal than I thought...

How the Gossip Queen(s) found out oso I dunnoe..."You think if I'd known he'll two-time me I'd stead with him uhk?!" *curses* It's like as if they don't know how to manage their own lives. Like as if they gossip about ppl just to get attention and to get away from their messed-up reality/life. If theirs are messed-up, the least they could do is not to ruin others right? and make their lives right... B***h sia...>/

I reli want the holidays to go on for another week. I actually thought it will =_= Ouh poo...If only it was true...if only...I could pretend that the school week is still the last holiday week *grins* ingenious! But that wouldn't bring justice T.T I don't know if Mr. S is gonna assign another vice-chair...but I hope the next one would be really responsible...I also don't know if Mr. S is gonna change chairperson...I want the next person to be uber diginfied and responsible too...I hope it's a girl ^^ (not biase arh. Current person is a boy) If Mr. S don't change it's gonna be kindda unfair, I guess...Well, BEST OF LUCK to the next chosen ones, if there is a chance to be chosen ^^

Went to Sarawak for "educational trip" 31May2007-4June2007. UBER FUN SIA!!! I wanna go again! =D On the first day, took a plane for the first time at 8:15am, reached beautiful Sarawak, Kuching(Capital of SARAWAK), tour bus took us to museum(the outside is uber gorgeous and the inside is...well...museum-y ^^ full of cultural items and stuffed animals. Syok! XD), at 3pm, went to the hotel to get signed in and waited...and wait somemore...and wait...until 4pm, cikgu(s) decided where we'll be sleeping and with whom. I gots Adilah, Fariha, Umairah, Nad, Mahirah ^^^^^^. We stayed in an apartment suite. I thought it'll look lyk Zack&Cody's but it was kindda close. The kitchen was te spookiest coz it's all black and small =s ...i continue next time lar...I wanna put pics oso ^^ If cannot insert photo, I'll just type it out lar...

TTFN(TaTaForNow) ^^...xoxo

-azri
11:03 AM

Shinylocks story has come to an end. Her playmate broke her heart by leaving her stranded on the slide. He ran just by hearing the sound of the villages gossiping about them having a "relationship" and not really suited for each other. Shinylocks heart broke into pieces...more than the pieces of her broken heart-shaped cookie. Now she's lost and alone in the thick woods of Abandoned Forest...

Yea...the "impossible" and "irony" has happened to me...I've been robbed of keepin u part with part entangled near gore so out n gross. If you don't understand what I mean, nvm. Just ignore the bad grammer...after all, I am da Weirdo Queen ^^

[SIGH] Broke my heart completely...even though I lied to *ahem*...Shit lar...this feling sucks...that's why I advise to my young comrades not to have a BGR (Boy Girl Relationship) at their age and preferably at 17-18 or so...more MATURE and you noe wad you reli WANT...

Don't noe wad to do but move on...

-azri
4:10 PM

Shinylocks just skippin' through...

Keying in my homework for the HELL HOLS xp

1) English: Oral:- Take a text, read it, say it aloud and record.
-CD-fy
- Reflection
- Print text and title+author

*Khadijah
*Sharifah
*Isabel

Words:-500 words to be found of its meanings and classify in different genres

To be done by 6th July 2007

2) Math: 3 WS

To be done by 30th May 2007

3) Chemistry: TYS Topic 1.1, 2, 3, 4

To be done by 2nd July 2007

4) Physics Test: All that you've learnt

To be learnt by 2nd July 2007

5) POA: Entreperneurship (did I spell that correctly?)

To be done by 2nd July 2007

6) Mother Tongue: -Traditional Wedding Ceremony
*Aizat
*Isabel
*Hui Ru
*Koon Zhee
*Kang Hui

To be done by 2nd July 2007

7) Social Studies: Iternational conficts
*Individual

To be done by the end of 1st week of schoool reopen



Basically, I dunnoe if there is any other homework or if the due dates are correct but I'm just postin just in case I forget...T.T

-azri
5:28 AM