This Monday, 271106,we had a class chalet in Downtown East...Hanna booked a room for 2 days 1 night...I thought it was fun but it sucked...really...How it all went: 1)Hanna called to "help" her with stuff so had to go down at 1:30pm
2)Razeef was at her house
3)Maisara needed a big container for the chicken(I brought 2.ony needed 1.It filled up 1/8 of the container)
4)It was raining
5)I ddn't chose the right outfit apparently
6)Took a taxi...like as if I'm that rich
7)It was a HEAVY downpour and I was wearing white
8)I looked like a bloody minah or a mak nenek
9)Reached there finally
10)Had to pay $1 for entry
11)Took pics
12)The rest came
13)Went to the chalet...block F...so far in
14)Wited for Ashurah+she had half of the food needed with her
15)Waited for Shadiq while he sent his gf home...how sweet<3
16)While waiting, me, Maisara & Liyana talked about crappy stuff concerning me and Shadiq
17)Sumone insulted me about Shadiq and me not being in his league(You think I bloody care???And it reli hurt *****)Like as if I dun freakin noe tt
18)I waited down at the shelter in a murderous mood
19)Ashurah came wif her bibik
20)Started the fire...sumone promised that I could start the fire but sumone else took over and got all the credit even though I thought of tt perfect senseful idea on how to start the bloody fire...(All over a stupid fire)
21)Help prepare the BBQ
22)The rest played cards not bothering to help
23)Hui Wen and Shirley(my dears)helped me wif the fishball poking
24)Sexy Celia came wif her boy who jz sat together in a corner
25)Played water bomb
26)Made friends wif Ash's bibik...she called me cute
27)Had a crappy day(wasted my $10)
28)No one bothered to accompany me...Maisara did.Sumore in the state tt she's in...let's jz say she shouldn't go out at night according to her state
29)Shadiq is a lazy ass...saed wanna accompany me but didn't
30)Momma picked me up at 11pm and went home...glad I didn't sleep over...

-azri
1:50 PM

What's Your Disorder? Anorexia [ ] you have dry skin. [ ] you're very weak. [x] you hate your body. [x] you starve yourself. sometimes.. [ ] you have low self esteem. [ ] you use laxatives. [x] you need to be skinnier. [ ] people think you are way too skinny. total: 3 ADHD (attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder) [ ] you are hyper most of the time. [ ] you barely pay attention to anything. [ ] you cannot cooperate with people well. [ ] you seem to never sit still. [ ] you talk all the time. [ ] you need attention 24/7. total: 0 Bipolar Disorder
[x] you can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[x] you are very irritable.
[x] you barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] you are anti-social.
[x] you have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
total: 5
Bulimia Nervosa
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you eat fast.
[ ] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[x] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.(I REALLY AM!!!)
[ ] people think you are way too skinny.
total: 1
Conduct Disorder
[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people.
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others. (ex: knife, bat, etc.)
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone. -_-!i
[x] you destroy property on purpose. ...SOMETIMES...I SWEAR!!!
[x] you always sometimes lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
total: 2
Depression
[x] you are always sad.
[ ] you always are crying.
[ ] you find no hope in your future.
[ ] you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[ ] you always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[ ] you have low self esteem.
[x] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[ ] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] you are failing school.<
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
[ ] hope is no longer there for you.
total: 3
OCD (obsession compulsive disorder)
[x] you have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself. ....mentally.
[x] you are afraid you will get an std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again.
total: 7
PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder)
[ ] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you feel highly uncomfortable when remembered/remembering the event.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] you have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[ ] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[x] you act younger than your age.(Atleast I tried not to...)
total: 6
Schizophrenia
[x] you often have hallucinations (seeing things or hearing things that aren't there).
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[ ] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[ ] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[ ] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
total: 4
Now, add them up and see which has the most and you'll figure out your disorder.
I have OCD...great...
BTW:I got it from a friends blog...u noe hu u are...and I can't believe you'd sae u'll burn in hell...I thought tt I.L.Y. is fer me...bloody crap larh...

-azri
10:50 AM

I'm confused...alotta stuffed had happened im my life which I jz wanna ignore...but its not in my nature jz to ignore and leave the moment lying there, floating mindlessly...I love you...but I dunnoe if i can trust u wif him...I reli hav a bad feeling...about him...no matter how much he describes his love fer you or give u expensive things...Its jz...not...right...

Call it wadeva...shit larh or crap larh...but i still hav this "feelin" and its never wrong...And if he reads this...dun blame me but my sixth sense...I'm jz lukin' out fer my girl...unlike you although that heart crystal artificial present of proposal to her was fake nice...really

Anyways...I got into the class that I ADORE...nearly. Sharing classes wif me is...Ashurah!!!...Zahran...Adilla...so far tt's all I can remember(-_-)...jz hav to wait till next year lor...so EXCITED!!!

I regretted playing "truth or dare" that day...it was so embarrassing and its answering a question that rest between loyalty in friendship and a question of the heart...but my answer is...I reli dunnoe...if u wanna noe...talk to me...show me ur personality and let's see where we'll go...i think...but even so...i dun think so its gonna happen...in ways and reasons that will never escape my lips...

Last two days was fun...I went to TM with my cousin(she so pretty and cute...for a 16years old tt is)haiz...bt pity her...she gt loads 0f probs..sedih2..keciannyer...right...well, we went to look for her nose assessories(must be painful)...she looks lyk a cow *mooo*...we went walking all over the mall...wasting our time (i can't believe i actually have time to waste) o_o...I would consider tt day my BRAVEST day in my whole LIFE coz...I actually went up to HOT/CUTE guys lyk as if they're my closest friend or pal or something...I usually choke or give way (-_-)...BUT TT DAY!!!WALLIAO!!!It was lyk ALOT of them tt I chatted wif...Aiyoh...I gotta sit down and rest fer a while...to much action in a day...*slaps self*

AND I'M NOT A STINKIN' DESPERADO OR PLAYGIRL...try being in an ALL-GIRL school for SIX years STRAIGHT and suddenly entering boy world!!!It's...hard...and...interesting...--,

-azri
10:50 PM

[Sigh]...If I didn't care, why would I even bother to do that blog entry???If I were to call you, you'd be too distracted and thus have no use to even try talking to you...

Even if I wanna be "holier-than-thou" its becoz I'm afraid of akhirat and the consequences unlike you and if I dun tell you I'll also get the dosa(sin)...

If I didn't tell Nadi to put herself in ur shoes...she would've gone much worser on you and tell everyone else...I would too if I were her,but I put myself in your shoes...that's how I know...(A-duh!!!)

You don't even know where to begin in what I'd prayed to Allah for so dun talk like as if you-KNOW-IT-ALL...bcoz YOU DON'T!!!

Even if I'm the same age as you...I don't even plan on having a boyfriend in anyway right now...the things I've said to you,all those fantasies, are the only way I can de-stress, as I've told you before which you would've remembered if you didn't have a short-term attention span...

For your IC, there's always a database filled with your particulars JACKASS since you're young...and where would you find a person who'd do illegal IC???

The who'd-tolerate-your-crappy-atitude part...refering to when your MUM is NO LONGER on Earth...who'd you gonna cooperate with???Your husband?Your pets?HUH?WHO???Your lil bros are gonna have their OWN family and you're gonna be stuck at home with cats, kids and a husband...no career...no satisfying life...

Lastly, I've seen friends torn apart more then the no. of fingers I have on my hands that is if you could count and I DO know how much of a BITCH you can be and I AIN'T PLAYIN' WITH THIS WORDS...

So I suggest you go SIT in a corner, think through whats happened and whats gonna happen and what you're gonna do about it and then go on with your life coz obviously your delirious with whats going on around you...

If you wanna go through that "tragedy" you "wished" for, go ahead. Be my guest. Coz the only thing I can do is know about it and tell you if its wrong coz HELL no am I going to hell for what you'd done...

-azri
2:38 PM

I am sick of you're fucking attitude!!!Why are you so bloody IMMATURE?!?!?!Are you that desperate?Are you that cold at heart?I can't believe that you'd do this to me...and of all our four years of friendship over a guy you've known only for a year!

I know how you've felt...I know what you've been through...I even went on listening to all the nasty things you've shot at me...I'm the ONLY person whom could tolerate your crappy attitude and been there for you to my every possible way I can...and you give me this crap of a shit.YES PEOPLE...I ACTUALLY KNOW HOW TO SWEAR...AND THIS IS WHAT YOU'LL GET FOR MESSIN' WIITH ME!!!

First of all...YOU ARE STILL TOO YOUNG!!!
Secondly...no matter how OLD you think you are they can always look at your bloody IC!
Thirdly...keeping this from people whom ACTUALLY CARE does NOT soften the "BLOW" even microscopically
Fourth...you should've known Nadi has the RIGHT to know coz she's ACTUALLY related!!!
Fifth...after going through this "phase" with you., the least you could do is say sorry straight to my face...don't ask Nadi to do your job
Sixth...I'm disappointed in you coz I thought you were worth much more than this...

-azri
6:10 PM