Girl with the Wings

Thursday, March 29, 2007

I don't feel haveing my Dad come home from his "rest" vacation for a whole 6 days w/o the family and the very next day he's working, was a great idea...I feel bad about what I'm going to say but I've so got to get this off my chest...For those whole 6 days, I felt alive...free...loved...understood...There was no one to bug me...no one to torture me...no one to be fighting with and no one I need to scold to and the house felt cleaner...Too bad there's no such thiig as "Your polls are down. I'm afraid we have to replace you with someone more fun, understanding, responsible and who actually cares about the family"...XD...I WISH!

It's still a shitty shitty day no matter what when she and he are still around, constantly bugging me. One trying to prove that she's the smart-ass of the century and the other desperately trying to get my attention. Damn larh!

Geography is taking a toll on me. I think its trying to get a new image and trying to bully me just because I beat it with an A1. I can't believe it's striking me out and trying to fail me and the worst thing is I think it's plans are working...O__o Bloody floodplains and leeves... Yet again, I'm the most hated in class..I'm still wondering why...Is it because they say that I'm too 'out' with the things I've said? Is it because I was like a nag just so I could bring justice to order? I know that I'm not the socialable kind of person...in fact, I suck at it. I don't know how to make gut-ripping jokes like my brother neither am I that versitile and neither do I have 'the looks' although I'm still working on it...

Worst of all, I don't have a friend that is true enough to share my sorrows with, to share my deepestest darkestest secrets with, to feel the pain with me...unfortunately you guys may think by now that by me saying this, I sound lyk a desperado, no? Hopefully not coz it's not what I'm trying to tell...tha is if you guys do see this blog larh...hahax(bimbo much?) --_--!!!I gt anyways...bands about to start. And to all those who wants to kill themselves, don't do it coz it's NOT WORTH IT!!!(so random).Ta!

-azri
11:07 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Let's see...as I've said many many times due to not updating alot of times + _-...alot of things has happened during the period of time whereby I did not update...English class is FANTASTIC...as usual...Math is degrading coz I failed it due to panic and I forgot the formula...damn *knocks head against wall*...BUT Mr. Sim is trying real hard to achieve a success in my grades...SERIOUSLY!!! The class is not giving him any slack!!! He is such a poor thing...The way the class treated him was filled with such uncompassionate I-can't-believe-this-are-the-people-that-are-going-to-uphold-Sinapore's-future's-name kind of people...I can't believe they could be so heartless as to do such a thing...It's like as if they're eevry other uncivilised Singaporean who ONLY CARES about THEMSELVES!!! COME ON POEPLE!!!!...Ugh!!! Anyways, I have 2 A's if it weren't combine...I have an A even if it is combined...I scored the highest for Humanities, ironically...I say it's ironic coz it's not really one of my strongest subject...I did get A1 for Geography but sumthing(grade) for S.S. and it dragged it down to A2 -_-!!! And if my CA1 marks were to be used for 'O' Levels..I would never be able to go to a JC!!!...*sob*...guess I'll just have to work harder...

My friendship with people aroud me ain't going so well...You see, I'm the kind of person who knows what I'm doing is right as long as I know that it will not hurt anyone in anyway (discluding those idiots who ALWAYS have to complain for things like " 'Che!!! I dun wan to carry the book(s) home!!! So heavy!!!"...Go do us a favour and jump into a lake and drown there! I don't think you could even survive in the jungle for less then half an hour...make that less than one minute...let alone the real wolrd! I'm telling you this for your own good and telling this straight in your face for you to realise rather than you just figureing it out during the time when you're supposed to be ready/ prepared for it! I can't believe most of my generation is so spoiled, weak and useless, unless it has to do with pointless constant whinings! How will our country survive, for Allah's sake?!

Right now, I don't know if friends are good for me...they don't even care about me!!! Why am I even calling them friends??? Seriously, someone give me an answer!!! I'm sick and tired of trying to fit in where people are too stereotype and too self-concious about themselves and don't even bother to care even a bit for the poeple around them!!! Tell me when was the last time you gave an elderly your seat??? Tell me when was the last time you helped a teacher carry their books??? TELL ME!!! It's just so frustrating to think that shameful people like them could even be born into this world...I guess they should be born since the world itself has been corrupted with their barbaric manners!!! You don't care, YOUR future child has to suffer!!! You don't care, the whole WORLD has to suffer!!!...just because of your self-centred incompetence...I've had enough...Idiots out there...STOP TRYING TO CHANGE MY LIFE!!! I LIKE IT THE BLOODY WAY IT IS!!!

-azri
8:54 PM