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Thursday, July 26, 2007

Title: Why?

Ouh dear... It seems that my heart can only belong to One and One only...apparently, that One does not know this and I can't bear to tell him. Pathetic seyy aku... Everytime I see him, my heart melts... I would miss him everyday. Whether or not I see him. And when at times I think that he does not care for me, someone would say that he's been trying to find me for the whole day or something like that. T.T When I see his face, it does not look like it...wouldn't look like it...

I feel constantly hurt...I cry at night...I make people worry...I'm sorry... I know I look pale and sick... I wonder why humans have the will to feel emotions but end up getting hurt...I sometimes wish that I'll go numb...no emotions... I jz want to be happy, to be secure, to be loved.. Doesn't everyone? Even goths have/wants someone to be with them. To share their sorrows...Even animals too. Don't you agree?

Anyways, today we had Eng Presentation. DAMN, I KNOW I COULD'VE DONE BETTER...I just dun hav the guts...people around me would've thought it's lame...*CHIKO*...why am I so easily influenced lately??? Shit lar...I dun care...I JZ WANNA BE ME...WHY IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND??? WHY IS IT SO HARD TO ACCEPT??? WHY DO ALL OF YOU CRITICISE ME WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME INSIDE OUT??? WHY?!

why?...
why?...
why?...

Inside, I was never strong...never strong enough to help you guys...never strong enough to help myself...no one would understand... He wouldn't understand... I dun think he would even dare to try...

why?
why?

why?...


-azri
5:08 AM